Thursday, April 3, 2014

How do you know?

David and I have really never agreed on that magic number of kids.

I have always wanted four and he was always set on two.

We met in the middle with three.

Then we spent three years trying to get pregnant again and when it looked like it wasn't going to happen, we came to terms and were okay with one.  We made new plans and dreams that fit our family of just three and carried on with life. 

Then Amelia came along, three became four, and there again was that dream that maybe four could be five one day.

But that dream was short lived.  There is no way around it, Amelia has been a tough baby.  Colic and reflux have kicked our butts over this past eight months.  We wouldn't trade her for the world and we know this is just a stage of life, but it hasn't made these past eight months any easier.

Five months in, we decided we were done.

Two were plenty.

So, we made plans to make things permanent.

For three months now, this permanent solution has been on the schedule.  After several months of me being on several different hormonal solutions, I had to come off because I felt like it was making me crazy.  Needless to say, we've been counting down the days till this could be done.  We were ready to be done...ready to be heading out of the baby stage of life with our two girls.

Life could easily be pictured with our two girls. 

Tuesday was the big day, we dropped the girls off with the sitter, headed out to the appointment.  After 30 minutes of back and forth, due to a huge mix up with prescriptions, billing, voice mail messages, etc....pretty much everything that could be wrong was wrong...things did not go as planned and the permanent solution did not happen.

At first I was pissed.....so very pissed.  I cried.  I yelled.  I blamed him for it all going wrong.  I did all the things you do when things don't go as planned.

After an awkward thirty minute drive home, I had finally calmed down enough for us to somewhat talk about what had just happened an hour before. By the time we made it to lunch, we were joking about "number 3."

And because I'm one of those people who believes everything happens for a reason, then of course....I've questioned it since.

Maybe we aren't done?
Maybe it all happened for a reason?
Maybe we are supposed to be a family of 5?
Maybe there's a reason we had went ahead and bought a minivan last year?

I know I no longer want four, but I still love the dynamics of a family of five. We have some good friends with three kids whom we spend time with on a regular basis.  I love the dynamics of their family.  It's kinda crazy and loud, but not Jim Bob and Michelle Duggar crazy and loud.  It kinda feels like a big family but without the cost of a big family.

I understand his feelings of only two.  As the breadwinner in our family, he feels major pressure for the financial responsibility of our kids.  I know when it comes to kids and finances, peoples beliefs or all over the board, but the only way to sum it up is we do have a standard of living we want our kids to be raised in and having more than two would effect that.  Not saying we'd be out on the street if we had another, but the extras and travel wouldn't be what we would like to have. 

On top of that, it would mean a 4th c-section to my body.  Due to my past, I would be a repeat c-section.  C-sections are rough and harder to recover with each time. Yeah, there's a lot worse, but it's no slice of cake either.  Though my Dr. hasn't told me that I can't have another, she has made me aware that I only have really one more shot. She doesn't recommend more than three usually.

So, here we are a few days out and I'm still questioning.  It's funny because just the other night a friend was talking about having another and she said her biggest fear was the same as mine....would it be something I regret later on?  I doubt I'll ever regret having a third...but do you regret not having another?

How do you know?

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

First Day~April 2014

 Here's a peek into our first day of April...

Technically, my little human alarm went off at 2am, but I was not coherent enough to snap any pics at that time of day. So, our day started with her second alarm of the day...


I can't do just regular old coffee anymore, it makes me gag, so I'm getting my caffeine from those crystal light packs with "energy." And yes, I probably drink way more in one day that I should.



Shout out to the monogram!!!

 




I'm kinda jealous of those legs...and she's only four!!! Mismatched flip flops are her "thing" these days.


Okay, I've been getting a few of those questions along the lines of "what do you do all day?" and though I know I should just ignore it, it was kinda bugging me lately.  So, I dug up an old pedometer and this was in just the first hour and fifteen minutes.  So contrary to belief, no, I don't watch daytime tv all day.






Laundry......always laundry.


 

Can you spy two fairies hiding from baths and bedtime? 

 

Little sister has a new bedtime routine where she stands up int crib and screeches like a pterodactyl while repeatedly throwing all the pacis in her bed at you all the way across the room (we may have a softball player on our hands), this routine last about an hour, so big sister hangs out with us until little sisters nightly gig is up.  It's actually kind of a funny routine. 



I read while he watched movies he's already seen a thousand times.


Last call of the night...


Linking up with Nic

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

2014 Reads.

Reading hasn't been happening much lately. 

I want to.  I just haven't been able to a). find the mood and b). find the time. 

I usually always try to read before bed but have been falling asleep the moment my head hits the pillow at 8:30pm.

Here are a few things I've read so far this year...

The Magician's Nephew 

http://www.amazon.com/Magicians-Nephew-Chronicles-Narnia-ebook/dp/B001I45UF2/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1396360190&sr=8-1&keywords=the+magicians+nephew


Confession...I have never read the Chronicles of Narnia.  I've had the books for years, but I just cannot get into them.  For some reason, it bugs the heck out of me that these are classics I have never read.  I decided this year to just tackle one at a time every few months or so.  They're short and easy reads. I started January with The Magician's Nephew.  I finished it, but wasn't totally impressed.  I've decided to keep on trucking through them so I can say I've read them. I've yet to pick up the next though.

The Hangman's Daughter



This one got a lot of hype and great reviews, but to be honest, I was a little disappointed in it.  Its was much longer than it needed to be and I personally thought it was anticlimactic for the type of book it was.  It's a series and I've heard the second gets better, but I doubt I'll pick it up. 

Orphan Train



Loved it! It was an interesting read and had good message in the end. It's one of those that everything was tied up in a pretty little bow at the end and let's be honest, sometimes we need those kind of books.  A great vacation read.

Fortune's Children: The fall of the house of Vanderbilt


I picked this one up on our trip to Asheville last year and have been reading this one for months now.  I finally finished it on vacation.  If you're into historical nonfiction, it was a really interesting to learn about the Vanderbilt family. David has been reading it for the last month or so and it's lead to a lot of discussion between he and I.  Plus, it's always fascinating to see how those people lived.

The Signature of All Things


I enjoyed Elizabeth Gilbert's Eat, Pray, Love a few years back, but have yet to pick anything else of hers up.  I had heard great things about this one and snatched it up at the library while at story time one day.  This book was interesting to say the least.  It's definitely a different story line and some might not be comfortable reading it, but I loved this book.  It's about 500 pages and I devoured it in two days (we were on vacation, so my children didn't have to be ignored).  The last two pages of the book were so good, I had to read them out loud to David. It's not light reading, but it's definitely worth it. Yes, I even snapped photos of the last two pages since it was a library book.

Love that!

So, read anything good lately?

Saturday, March 29, 2014

This weeks extras.

Here are a few pictures that didn't make social media this week....

Sunrises at the farmhouse have yet to get old...


We made a "welcome home" sign for the neighbors...



Of course the wind blew it off and ripped it in half before they made it home to see it :(


 Some days I still can't get over we have two...


 Farewell committee...


 Most four year olds fit in a jogging stroller, however, my four year does not...


 And after two weeks....it was good to be back in my spot....


Have a great weekend! : )

Friday, March 28, 2014

Farmhouse life: two months in.

A lot of people have been asking, so here it is....a farmhouse update.

I have been postponing because I kept waiting for that moment when the farmhouse was magically all clean and picture perfect.  Then I got honest with myself and realized...it wasn't happening anytime in the near future, so here you go....farmhouse update real life edition.



A lot of the time I get grief about how much I rearrange furniture, especially after we first move anywhere.  Believe it or not, there is a method to the madness.  I like to see how we live in a room first.  I usually have a general idea on how to initially place furniture in a room, but 90% of the time, I see that we live life in that room differently than I imagined and it gets moved around.  So, that's my advice when it comes to decorating....decorate a room according to how you live life in that room, not on how you think it should be decorated and never be afraid to turn a rug in the opposite direction! ; )

That being said, the biggest change in two months was that we took out the sitting area out of the kitchen and made it one big kitchen/dinning area.  We still have a few projects to make this transition more complete, but so far, we're loving it much better than the original arrangement.


We never sat on the loveseat and it essentially just ended up collecting junk.  Also, our table fit the other way, but it felt too crowded.  The light fixtures now need to be reversed, for now the exersaucer sits under them so no one hits their heads.


David's dad has been recruited to build me a new bigger island that includes seating.  Now if I can just remember to send him the plans, hopefully we'll have it soon.

Yeah, I still need to do some curtains for under the sink and we are planning on making all new doors for the bottom cabinets so all the doors can match. 


Originally, I planned on putting "kitchen" stuff on the bookshelves, but after living with it like this for a few weeks, I actually like having the random everyday stuff we use on it, even if it is in the kitchen.  I still need to "style" the shelves, but for now the bottom pretty much holds toys/books/puzzles for the girls.  The top is pretty much whatever I could find to throw on there and some school stuff that needs to be out of little sisters reach.


The loveseat got moved to the living room.  It makes things a little tighter but I like having the extra seating.

The gallary wall isn't finished yet.  I'm still looking for a piece or two to finish off the right top corner. 

We're also still in need of a rug.


Curtains need to be hemmed.



An updated picture of the girl's room is here. I don't have the energy to repost them.

Here's what the playroom is looking like these days. Obviously we still need a globe for the fan light and I'm still planning on painting the room a lighter color this summer.

 
 

Our room is one that won't change much while we're here.  There's not too much room to move the king size bed around.  We will eventually get new "matching" dressers on each side for our nightstands.
 

However, the tv is on the wall this round, but we still need to put the cords behind the wall.
 

Ignore the dirty mirror. I have a four year old who is in love with herself.

We also got a few shelves in the linen closet. He still has one more to go, but he was getting frustrated and I had to tell him to step away.

Once again...a curtain needs to be added. My towels don't match enough to have it open. 


We've also done a few things outside...excuse me...David has done quite a few things outside. 

David cut down a few big branches that needed to be removed after the winter storms we had.  He's also trimmed whatever is supposed to be trimmed at this time of year....y'all know I have no clue about that stuff.   He also filled a few of the really bad pot holes in the drive way.  I won't bore you with picture of gravel though.

The biggest thing is we added slammer doors!!!

In case you don't know what a slammer door is, it's a screen door on a tight coil that slams it shut automatically.  I said something about them on instagram the other day and a couple of people had no clue what I was talking about.  Most of the country probably just calls them "screen doors" but we call them slammer doors down South because of the loud slamming sound it makes when it shuts.



I love all my houses to have open doors and windows.  We didn't have any on the last house because it didn't go with the style house at all, so adding screen doors was a priority. 

Being that we can let the kids go play on their own over here, having the doors helps to be able to still keep an ear on them.  Plus, I don't have to yell "shut the door" a hundred times a day.

 

Now the question is what color do I paint them?  They are plain wood and need to be stained or painted to withstand the outdoors.  I originally thought white (safe choice) but now been debating staining them a dark stain maybe? Or maybe a fun color?

Suggestions?

In case you forgot, here is what the farmhouse looked like two months ago.